relationship always got so many problem. maybe cause it's wrong to even start when we don't know each other. after we got to know each other, then we found that our character don't match. e.g. what you like i don't like, thus wish to change/accomodate to me of what i like. -.- love like this isn't love. it's trying to be selfish.

maybe if we were to be more selfishless, we can be together happier. do you agree dardar? i don't deny saying that i'm all tire out by you, i don't blame you. because just like ur friend 'xiaoyun' says, you focus more on relationship, and you aren't wrong on that. but ur friend isn't wrong too, she's more into friendship.. thus both of you expect different things from each of ur boyfriend.

maybe now that i understand.. why michelle and jerome can be so happy. See it Dardar! Here's the difference. Jerome's willing to give up friendship and family for Michelle, whereby Michelle is like ur 'xiaoyun' putting friends as first priority. Thus, Jerome's able to ACCOMODATE to Michelle whereby I see that she can't accomodate to Jerome. Agree/understand? This's what I see so far, so much that I experience so far from you.

Now let's talk about us, you put me as your first priority, not like I don't know. Thus, just like ur friend says, both of you expect different things from each of us. e.g. 'xiaoyun's willing to buy WOW for her boyfriend, she believe in him that as long as he has time to chat with her it's ENOUGH. Whereby if I were to play WOW, you won't be able to tolerate and start wild thinking e.g. Do you still love me etc...

Reason being, I'm not able to put you as first priority and you are focusing too much on me. I know you love me and I love you, but the thing is... Love is love, I seek freedom and trust in it. Dardar, I don't expect you to Accomodate to my schedule. neither do I want you to feel sad whenever i'm not with you. I wan you to know, ur time is precious.. don't waste it by waiting for me. I'm trying to tell you, make good use of ur time to achieve something.. Be frank, Dardar.. I give u a situation...

if Both of us are always together 24/7, happily together... will we achieve anything in life? I wish to achieve something which I feel is more important than just love now! Darling, Love is hard to find, but achieve something in life is also important.. You understand mah?? I always don't know how to tell you, i'm afraid to hurt you unintentionally. but if i don't say u'll see that relationship is more important than anything now.

Conclusion, i'm happy with you around. I love the way you are. I wish you to do something that you like to achieve in future. set it yourself.. no one is born to be talented. I wish to stay with you forever. Now I wanna achieve something, I seek trust and freedom. Until marriage I'll be like this.

Marriage is when I've decided to settle down. Commitment will then be set. Dar.. I know you are suffering now in ur family because of ur sisters. Darling, I've see something in u. You put things too much weigh in relations(relationships and friendship), you have no goals that u'll like to achieve. Just like someone without anything seeking something around. then when someone tell u that you can't... you'll think u can't. thus, I'll say it's confidence and boldness to step out. It's what you lack. I've bring you out of last relationship, with ur ex'es. I'm here for you now, take a step out. I'm willing to be your pillar. I'll help you if u need.

Take time to read my this entry. I've thought so much before writing these. not to spite you, but hope you'll understand what you lack and what you need now. Lastly, Darling, I love you. No lie.