ABOUT ME
I'm weijie
Leo is my horoscope
Love working with my dear friends
Love my Darling
Love to listen to 'ACTIVE' songs
-Japanese songs
-English Pop
-Mandarin
Studying in RP
Working at Sakae Sushi
Currently trying hard to work for myself
FRIENDS
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Dilys
Alvin
Sean
Celeste
Sherilyn
Tricia
Kevin
Miaka
Tracy
Wendy
Xyndee
Gladys
Elaine
Gab
SiewFen
Serene
Eddie
Michelle a.k.a Lynda
Yuping
jiayan
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Thursday, November 15, 2007
Girlfriend, a gal whom I've a relationship with, condition someone who can make me happy and feel relax when I'm with her. Not a burden nor a stress. I've a galfriend :) I'm happy to have her :) But i can see she's not happy with me. First, I'm like her best friend whom she can come and I lend her my listening ear, listening to all her troubles, making her feel better.
but recently, I've been making her feel very down instead of feeling better. I can't be by her side most of the time. Either my choice or out of no choice. My schedule is rather tight, work and her and studies. Let me explain in more details.
I've this girlfriend, name Jessica. She's a nice girl and cute in size too. But she has a very bad temper. I've to work, cause my parents can't really support me with whatever I want. It's not bad to work, just that some stress such as work environment, people in work place and Darling have been stressing me. Work environment and people in work place are starting to improve, I think it'll last for some time :) Darling side is quite a difficult part for me to understand and do as what she want. She hopes that I can accompany her most of my time, and too bad that I can't. I've work and school to attend. School from 830am till 430pm. work on tuesday, friday, sat and sun. Tuesday and friday after school 6pm to 1030pm. Sat and sun from 12pm till 1030pm. I know I'm neglecting her liao. I know she's giving everything up very soon. I don't want that to happen. it makes me feel so bad and guilty that I've been neglecting her. but in order to balance my life with her, I've to work. She has so many things to buy that I can't buy her everything like Jerome and Yiliang(her sisters' stead), Their boyfriends can accompany them whenever they like because they've no concern in financial wise. They are in a somehow quite rich family. thus, I guess they don't have to work :) I know this guy Jerome has got work, and this work gives Jessica's sister have the chance to extend the time with him. Staying over, work together
My dArling has been very bothered by this incident, and thus got lots of unhappy incident. My fault to start with eh? Because I'm not a rich boyfriend whom has lots of time, and money :( Is that right? I can't accompany her the way Jerome accompany her sister, Michelle. I can't spend money like Yiliang on Joanna, like paying up for her insurance policy $100 per month. Hahaha.. My love for darling is not fake, but it's fading. I'm feeling very not confident that my darling can tolerate this any longer. But if I wan money for her, I've to scarifice my time for her. It's always balance in life. I want both, greedy and impossible too.
Does she understand my point whenever I say No, I can't go over for dinner? It's because I'm feeling very tired or I've work. I'm always feeling very tired almost everyday!! I've stopped playing my WOW for like a week or so... Giving me more time to rest. It had turn better with time spend on darling, but she doesn't seem to be satisfied. Let's put it this way. At nite, It's getting late like 12mn, for most people it's still early they can say huh?! your bf rather sleep than to talk to you on the fone? Lol! Please consider it that I'm not a good boyfriend or anything. No one can't understand unless you are in my position.
My dear darling has family problems, alot of it. I can't help her with it, but to always push her to her friends. I was once very bothered and i know friends can play quite a big part in making ourselves feel better. Thus, I often push her away so that she can feel better. What's worse is that she has quite a number of guy friends. Dilys says.. she saw she's with a guy that time when darling boarded the bus. I did not confront her regarding this because I'm assuming that's her friend. So it's okay. I did not see her home because I need to go for work, or I'm tired and need to go home for a quick rest.
Often that she says it's alright, she don't mind going home alone from the bus interchange. I can feel that she isn't. I can see that she wants lots of time with me. I hope I can. I hope I do. Gimme more time.
I really hope u understand. I'm stressing myself to be a better boyfriend.
I am pathetically living for others. :( Hate this, don't used to be living for others. I wanna break out of it. Break out of living for others.
I went to school with darling just now, happily wake up and i happen to be very awake. Intended to continue staying in school and do ppt. Jia yan never come, susan, dan cheng and yi feng etc all never come, except for some boring people in class which is very boring. U've never come into my class and really see, what's my class like.. Like I always tell leonard, It's like a graveyard.. no jokes, no talks, no chats.. with facilitator that talk to themselves and worksheet that's resourceful but misleading and problem statement that's so vague, PDT/FMT that's useless.
Who will wanna stay in this school? Gimme a reason please. FMT... I don't wanna say ar.. last time how we know whether there's fish bone in fish anot.. USE FMT? Last time before we learn how to walk, we use FMT? LOL!! bullshit RP.
Then just now I tried to leave halfway telling darling that she meet me later at my hse mrt stop which she sounded unhappy. I left for mac without thinking. Jiayan and huishi was with me at mac, played her psp for awhile. And darling msged me saying that there's a talk later on. Sadly, I went back to meet darling for the talk. I don't actually need, I only need ACTIVE DIPLOMA RELATED points. I went back to pei her for the talk lor!! The talk was interactive and nice. the master of presentation was perfect! after the talk all i asked from darling was to eat with me and she said she's not hungry. she did not eat at all, it was around 145pm(had breakfast at mac). then i told her, you go back and do ur ppt lor since you don't wanna eat. she say ok and left. i was like.. fine.... ok u go and do ur stuff and I'll go home. forget about going to ur hse for dinner. sadly sad sad sad.. So sad.. I thinked again, she's angry.. i'm angry too. but since i'm a guy, give it up lar.. win or lose in this kind of 'war' doesn't matter. it'll only show how childish we are. LOL.. and here I am in library blogging all that I feel out. While listening to music and waiting for her.
i guess she's still angry.. but no choice...
lEo has posted this on 2:05 PM